My 2019 Vision Board

Hey everyone!

I am back after a very long writing break. I just needed some time to recharge. I think I will write a post about it sometime soon but for now, we are taking 2019 in stride and talking about my goals!

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I decided to make a vision board because every successful blogger or Youtuber I’ve seen has made one. I thought I may as well make one. Not only to mooch off the success of way more talented people but also because maybe it will work? If I have to see what I want in life every day maybe it will kick my ass into gear to actually do things. We’ll see.

I also made a video of me making this vision board and explaining it if you want to see it. I also have a Youtube channel and would love if you guys checked it out. I posted every day during the month of December for Vlogmas this year.

Let’s get started on what my goals are for this year. At the end of December, I had an overwhelming feeling of need for change. I really wanted 2019 to be better than 2018. I was feeling motivated and like I had the world at my feet. I can do anything and all I need to do is set my mind to it.

  1. Going Vegan

One of my top goals for this year is to go Vegan. I have always wanted to go Vegan. I actually was a vegetarian for about 2 years and then I met my boyfriend. My boyfriend is not vegetarian so I ended up eating meat and meat products with him. I also grew up in a meat-eating family so it wasn’t much of a foreign concept. After eating not very healthy for the last few months I decided I wanted a change. I honestly believe going Vegan is better for you and so does my boyfriend so he is joining me with this goal. There are a lot of people that will disagree with me. That’s okay. I just have done research and now know that eating plant-based it just what I want to do in life. So on January 1st, it started. We have cheated a few times since starting but it’s mostly in terms of cheese haha. I knew it wouldn’t be as easy as going cold turkey but I hope by the end of 2019 we will be fully Vegan.

2. Mental Health

I had a rough time in my first year of college. I have talked about this on multiple occasions. I skip school and get sick a lot. I decided that I was not doing that anymore. I was tired of ruining my own chances in life. I decided that I was taking 2019 to heal myself. I am working on my anxiety always. I just want 2019 to be the year where I get everything under control. I am tired of feeling sick and like I can’t leave my home. I’m not saying that I will be perfect. I am sure I will still get days where I can’t leave the house. I want to make it less than last semester though. That is my goal! I also want to meditate more and do yoga. I want to be more in touch with myself and put my feelings first and needs first.

3. Weight Loss

I want to lose weight. This is one of the biggest new years resolutions of all time. I believe in my heart that 2019 is the year for me to heal myself both mentally, physically and spiritually. Eating better and focusing on my mental health are the stepping stones for weight loss I think. I am at the heaviest I’ve ever been. I actually talk about this in a blog post from a few months ago. I don’t hate how I look per se but I do feel unhealthy and would like to tone up.  So I got a gym membership (who am I kidding? I’ve been paying for it for 6 months and have never gone) and I stopped buying UberEats. Hopefully, by the end of 2019, I will be in a healthier space.

4. Travelling + Seeing My Bestie!

I didn’t get to travel much in 2018. Travelling is one of those things I love the most in the world but I don’t get to do it too often. My goal this year is to really take the leap and go on as many trips as I can. I actually bought a passport holder that I leave on my desk. I believe in putting out into the universe what you want. I want to travel so I bought a passport holder to motivate me to save and plan more trips. Travelling is also important because my best friend lives like over 8 hours away. I miss her so much and really want to make more time to see her this year. There is no excuse. There are enough days in a year to make something work.

5. “Don’t stop until you’re proud”

My quote for this year is the one above. I really want to make this blog and my YouTube channel a full-time income. I hate working for other people and really just want to be my own boss. I actually photoshopped 1000 subscribers under my YouTube channel because I hope that this year will be the year that I will finally be qualified for Ads. I keep saying that I want to prioritize my blog and YouTube as a business but there’s always something that gets away, you guessed it, it’s myself! So this year I created a what I like to call a “content creating schedule” I literally bought an agenda and started scheduling in when things need to be done. It’s keeping my accountable. I want to say it’s working so far, I mean this blog post is up isn’t it?

So those are my 5 goals or New Year’s resolutions or habits or whatever you want to call them for 2019. I thought this was the best way to jump into 2019 with new content for you guys! I will be seeing you guys every Tuesday and Thursday! I hope you liked this post. I would really love to know if you guys have any goals for 2019? Or do you not believe in making goals?

Also, if you want to hear more from me I would love if you subscribed to my YouTube Channel where I post every Tuesday and Thursday also. Like always my posts and videos always go up at 9pm eastern time! I hope to see you guys over there!

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Mental Health Awareness Month // 2018

Dear Everyone!

It’s Mental Health Awareness Month in the USA and I thought I would talk about it. For all of you who know that I live in Canada, our celebration of Mental Health Awareness is actually from September 30th to October 6th, 2018. Even though we are aren’t technically talking about it here, there is never a bad time to talk about mental health. Talking and sharing our struggles with our mental health is very important to keep the stigma and stereotypes away.

I thought I would share a bit of my story briefly and I have a few words for everyone struggling with anxiety. I have anxiety basically my whole life and it has kept me from doing things for a very long time. It has been a big problem in my life and as of last year, I have started to tackle it head on and make sure I am in a better mental space. If you want to read more about my anxiety I have two posts about it where I talk about it and then an update a few weeks later.

Anxiety has been such a big part of my life and it took me a long time to realize that I am not my anxiety. Anxiety is something that makes me feel like I am not in control of my own life and no one should have to suffer from it. For all those who are wondering, I am not medicated and that is a choice that I have made for myself. I don’t have anything against people who are medicated but I just don’t believe in it for myself. From watching some of the people I am close to, to research I have determined that it was better to fight anxiety rather than mask the symptoms of it. For everyone who does take medication, there should be no shame or stigma towards it. I don’t believe in shaming anyone for taking medication to help.

I have also struggled with depression in my life and I do want to tell people it gets better. I know that sounds cliche and even wrong but it does. I think things got better when I realized that it was for me to make a change not the world around me. I think one day I just woke up and said I didn’t want to be depressed anymore and I was willing to do and change whatever it was I had to change so I wasn’t feeling the way I was feeling any longer. I cut out people who didn’t make me happy, I stopped doing things that made me sad and focused on the positive and just changing my mindset on life. I had an easy time and really transformed my life out of sheer willpower not everyone can do that I can recognize that. Keep fighting and doing what you are doing to feel better.

I think the most important thing that people who don’t suffer from mental disorders is that we who suffer are not our disorder. We are not anxiety or depression, etc. My anxiety can make me a who different person than who I really am. When I am getting anxious and having panic attacks it’s not because I want to it’s because something is wrong with my brain.

I really hope that people can come forward more and talk about how they are feeling without fear of judgment. My blog is a safe place to talk and always will be. If you ever need someone feel free to email me at collectingglitter@outlook.com or through my contact page.

Much love,

Collecting Glitter – Clara Le Bel

A Trip to The Art Museum

So I am the worst vlogger so I decided to write a bit more about my trip here on my blog. I had to go to the art museum again for school in the city. I was lucky enough to have my boyfriend here this week so I dragged him along.

We woke up to lots of rain but that didn’t dent our plans. For all those who read my anxiety post, this will be a mini update for you guys. I had no anxiety taking the train today, not even a little bit. I had to tell my boyfriend what to do so I think that’s why I wasn’t nervous. Also, my boyfriend keeps me calm. He is very much a go with the flow kind of person. If things go wrong, there’s always a way to get out of it. His presence just makes me feel safe. I love that he can be my anchor without him even knowing or trying. It’s good to have people around that make me feel good.

We had to walk on one of the businesses streets in the rain. It was miserable, to say the least. As much as it sucked I do love visiting the city. When we saw the museum in the distance it was like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

When we went to buy our tickets we found out the worst news, the majority of the museum was closed. Now, I had to go for a project so that really angered me. It took us all about 20 minutes to look at all 20 pieces. It was gorgeous but a “waste of time”. We giggled about it after and went to go eat.

All in all, it was a fun little day with my boyfriend. Even if the museum was a waste and not as grand as I thought it would be I love spending time with him. We laughed a lot and were soaking wet.

You can see my vlog of our day here:

 

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I Wish I Was a Travel Blogger but…an Update

I did something! I did something big! I took that stupid train to Montreal. I thought I would update all of you guys who showed love and encouragement on my last post about anxiety. I did something that scared the hell out of me and I feel so good.

Just a quick recap, I’ve had anxiety my whole life and it’s prevented me from doing that I want to do in life. I want to travel more than anything in the world. I want to be able to take a plane and just go, no worry and no fuss. The only problem, I get crippling travel anxiety amongst other anxiety triggers.

I did it, I took that train! I have never been so proud of myself. I was worried and got a bit panicky, but I pushed through it. On the train back from the trip I felt like I was walking on air. I felt accomplished and independent and like a bad ass bitch. I had finally done something that would get me in the right direction to my dream. I am now planning other trips to Montreal in the near future. I have caught the train bug.

How did I get to this point you may be asking? It’s only been two weeks since I posted my original post. First, I had a project that was due that kicked my ass into gear. I had to go to the city and I have no one to get me there. So that was less about bravery and more I didn’t want to fail my class because of anxiety. The second is writing in my journal. I have been writing religiously in my anxiety journal every day. Every time I feel a bit nervous about something, I write in it. I bring it with me everywhere. I find this is the one thing I need. I find it so funny how I never thought to do this before.

I am hoping to be able to grow and do even bigger things the more confident I get. I may be going to Disney World or down south. I really want to be able to blog about it.

If really hope this helps people. I know my vulnerability helps me. The more honest I am the more I feel better about my anxiety.

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I Wish I Was a Travel Blogger, but My Anxiety Won’t Let Me…

I have talked about anxiety a few times on this blog. I’ve mostly mentioned it briefly and didn’t dwell on it for too long. I am someone that had to deal with my anxiety alone for such a long time that I find it very hard to talk about. I don’t know how to explain it or let people help me. I just don’t know how. I suffer alone and then I tell people after the fact that I was not feeling too good.

This has to change now. Since 2018 has started I started to notice something that was bothering me. My anxiety was holding me back from being the person I really want to be. It was also messing with my relationships. I was holding myself back and I was letting anxiety take over. It was in control, not me. I want that to change. I want it to change so badly.

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