I did something! I did something big! I took that stupid train to Montreal. I thought I would update all of you guys who showed love and encouragement on my last post about anxiety. I did something that scared the hell out of me and I feel so good.
Just a quick recap, I’ve had anxiety my whole life and it’s prevented me from doing that I want to do in life. I want to travel more than anything in the world. I want to be able to take a plane and just go, no worry and no fuss. The only problem, I get crippling travel anxiety amongst other anxiety triggers.
I did it, I took that train! I have never been so proud of myself. I was worried and got a bit panicky, but I pushed through it. On the train back from the trip I felt like I was walking on air. I felt accomplished and independent and like a bad ass bitch. I had finally done something that would get me in the right direction to my dream. I am now planning other trips to Montreal in the near future. I have caught the train bug.
How did I get to this point you may be asking? It’s only been two weeks since I posted my original post. First, I had a project that was due that kicked my ass into gear. I had to go to the city and I have no one to get me there. So that was less about bravery and more I didn’t want to fail my class because of anxiety. The second is writing in my journal. I have been writing religiously in my anxiety journal every day. Every time I feel a bit nervous about something, I write in it. I bring it with me everywhere. I find this is the one thing I need. I find it so funny how I never thought to do this before.
I am hoping to be able to grow and do even bigger things the more confident I get. I may be going to Disney World or down south. I really want to be able to blog about it.
If really hope this helps people. I know my vulnerability helps me. The more honest I am the more I feel better about my anxiety.
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